Hamaar Asmaan

मैं जिया तो पूरा जिया हूँ, अब मर भी गया तो कोई गिला नहीं कुछ ख़याल में जिया, कुछ बे ख़याली में जिया कभी मासूमियत से मिला, कभी धूर्त के साथ हो लिया कुछ खुद से जिया, तो कुछ दुसरे के दम पे भी जिया, कभी ऐयाशी से जिया, तो कभी फाकों से भी जिया प्यार और नफरत एक हाथ से दूजे हाथ देके जिया कभी पीने के लिए जिए तो कभी जी भर कर पिया कभी खुद्दर रहे तो कभी खुदगर्ज़ी का भी पाला लिया पर मैं जैसे भी जिया, पूरा जिया ||

|| मेरे भीतर || क्यों चैन नहीं है मन में हमेशा चिंता क्यों बस्ती है क्या ही था मेरे पास, अब क्या खो जाने का डर है, क्यों मेरी लोगों से अपेक्षा खत्म नहीं होती अभी भी सब ठीक हो जाने का सपना किस दम पे देखता हूँ क्या जिद्द है कि इस मामले में ढीट हो गया हूँ || क्यों मैं सिर्फ तंज सुनता और सहता हूँ मैं क्यों किसी पे तंज नहीं कस्ता, क्यों बदतमीजी नहीं कर पाता क्या रोक देता है मुझे मेरी परवरिश या कायरता, क्या कभी जवाब दे पाऊंगा क्या मन कि भड़ास को कभी निकाल पाऊंगा?? क्या हुआ उन उम्मीदों और सपनों का जो कभी देखे थे और टूट गए, उनके साथ शायद अंदर से भी कुछ हल्का सा मैं भी टूटा था, और अब क्या होगा उन सपनों का जो अब भी कहीं अंदर दबे पड़े हैं मेरे , क्या हकीकत में जी पाऊंगा वो पल जो हो सकते हैं अभी भी मेरे?? जिंदगी में कहाँ से कहाँ आ गए, कुछ नये रिश्ते पाए, पर पुराने रिश्ते कहीं खो गए, नये-पुराने को कैसे साथ लाऊँ, कैसे मैं सबको समझाऊं, कि मैं अंदर ही अंदर घुट  रहा हूँ मैं फिर सबको एक साथ लाने के लिए ही शायद जी रहा हूँ, कब कैसे कहाँ हमेशा यही दिमाग़ के एक कोने में सवाल रहता...

***जीना ही रह गया *** एक ख्वाब था, जो टूट गया, एक इच्छा थी, जिसे मार दिया, एक लक्ष्य बनाया था अपने लिए, वो आज भी दूर ही है मुझसे, एक काम जरूरी था कभी, वो आज भी करना रह गया, मैं आधी जिंदगी यूं ही जी गया, और देखा की जीना ही रह गया || बारिश हुई थी जोरदार सी, पर मैं भीगे बिना रह गया, लहरों के पास तो गया था, पर सागर से मिलना रह गया, गया तो था मैं पहाड़ पे, पर ऊंचाई से दुनिया देखना रह गया, नदियों पे नाव से घूमा हूँ बहुत, पर उसका उफान देखना रह गया, मैं आधी जिंदगी यूं ही जी गया, और देखा की जीना ही रह गया || आया हूँ जब से दुनिया में, कई नए लोगों से मिला हूँ, कई से मिलना रह गया, कुछ अपने छोड़ के चले गए, कुछ अपनों को मानना रह गया, कुछ दोस्त थे पुराने, उनसे एक बार और मिलना रह गया, मैं आधी जिंदगी यूं ही जी गया, और देखा की जीना ही रह गया || बची है कुछ आधी और कुछ और सी जिंदगी, सोचा है हर खवाब पूरा कर लूँ , ताकि फिर ना लिखना पड़े की कुछ करना रह गया, क्योंकि मैं आधी जिंदगी यूं ही जी गया, और देखा की जीना ही रह गया || - अक्षत भारतीय 

A partner one needs to go along, On this journey that is life long, And as I assumed the path is for me alone, U came along as a damsel with all your dainty shone. The process has begun to know each other, Big & small things that are part of our ether, Mingling with each other making a interesting mix, Knowing each other’s various moods and tricks, Every day I experience u & oh dear U r clever, And I find myself needing u more than ever. -AB...:-)

Wishing a great new year to all . May this year be filled with awesome moments of success happiness and Peacefulness. May all come together for peace. And may I be able to get that person in my life who is gonna stay with mebthrough all the ups and downs of my life. Happy New Year 2017. - AB

Today on 14/12/2016 I have again got up early as early as 04:00 a.m., and again it's for travel for official reasons. But this time it is different as after long time I am taking up a long train journey 1000km plus. This is courtsey my boss who has not provided approval for flight travel this time as I & he had some arguments, so this is his way of taking revenge. I don't for how long with such attitude and environment I may be able to work with him, though I don't want to leave the organisation so early as I am also looking for stability in my life and overall the company is fine to work with. But things are getting difficult with such decision for not granting approval for air travel and to travel by train for long journeys which will take approx. one full day to reach my destination I am feeling demotivated, discouraged and kind of demoted also. Non stability in professional life  and other job related things have started taking toll on my own social and family l...

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And again a b'day has come for me...!!! This time its 30th..!!! its 24 minutes past in the new day(as per IST)...this day is my B'day... & only two people had wished me till now... both of which I cannot be informal at intimate at any level...!!! More craziness is that both are girls...to one I was attracted (or in my saying was in love) but lost the chance to express....as she was destined for someone else... And other one...well its funny...we knew each other because we both had our profiles on one of matrimony sites...& we started talking...we are not gonna marry each other due to some reasons...but she wished me just as the dates turned to mark my B'day..!!! its really unsettling to not have a life partner till now...and I really don't know when it will happen if it will...!!! But again who knows.. Though all may not be as I would have liked it...but its still my b'day....so a big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me...!!! & Thank You...!!! -AB

Its not what u think, neither its what u want..!! Its not what others thinks, nor they would have wanted..!! Its certainly not what it seems, it may be everything what no one thought..!! But its just everything what was required..!! Its life...live it fully..!!! #LiveLifeLoveLife -AB

Live your life don't try hard to find its meaning, Love your life or it will soon be dissing. It is for the living to live &, make their destiny by own way, Love the path you take to follow your dream, Don’t let anything make you sway. Love the People you like, Care for the people you love, Meet new & win them over Hold them all a bit closer, Hope they like you back, But don’t ever put relationship on a sack. Live life like u want, Let others taunt, You have come far to listen them, They may say things from one to ten, You will close one mouth another starts, Don’t lose your time just let them bark, Life is just what it seems, & each of us are little precious things. So Live life Love Life, U only got one..!!! -AB ‪#‎LiveLifeLoveLife

Another year has gone by…Year 2015 A.D....& yeah it was quite quick to pass just like that. Had been a great year for me personally & wish that same had been for you as well. There were many ups & downs…but in the end we are through…and all the unpleasantness, its in the Past now!! As we enter into dawn of new year of 2016 A.D…I urge you all to transcend 2015 with your happy, fun filled memories & lessons learnt with you to be more happy and a bit wiser in 2016…!!! Wishing you all a Happy Delightful & a Positive energy filled Year ahead..!!! Happy New Year..2016...!!! -AB

Life has funny ways of reminding you things which once were part of your life or were very dear to you. Just some moments ago I was talking to mumma (my mother, I call mumma instead of mummy) and she was telling that my youngest cousin has started going to school for some days now. (He is just 2+ & yet to debut on fb...:p) And how he has stopped crying while going to school & that he is not like me. Its because I cried for almost a year while going to school when I started. A t that moment I was hit by a memory that how Papa used to take me from our home (at that time in Sahukara, bareilly) to my first school (Alma Mater, Bareilly). On the way to school to keep me cheerful he & I used to count puppies on the way, it was a daily practice for us; though I guess it didn't worked in last because I always cried at the school gate. I have a distinct memory of counting those puppies & crying at school gate...numerous times..!!! During that instance while I was ta...

It has been for some days that I am trying to find a unique differentiation between a kind of similar words "Reaction" & "Response" . Even went on to google & other dictionaries to get the actual literal meaning of both. But in reality I was trying to gauge the difference in practical world. The difference between the ones "Reaction" & "Response" to the events or actions. What I have observed in real world out there that there is fine difference between two, which can not always be but mostly be observed. Lets go through each of them separately, Reaction: Reaction is instantaneous. This goes with pure feelings (if person is not too smart) & when someone is reacting the same feelings are depicted via facial expression too. The reactions we can say most of the times shows how true a person is. The reaction does not need too much of brain activity (thinking we can say) as it comes from deep rooted thoughts & beli...

The opportunities they say, comes seldom at ones bay. But how one may manage to check, if the opportunity is golden from their deck. To cash in on one which may transform your lifetime, or to keep guessing about others the whole time. The fear of failure looms upon like a smell foul, but scent of success carries one past that doubt, The courage to venture into that field unknown, is always the key to some awesome legacies we have known. Will one at last savour the taste of victory for the opportunity taken, or have to adjust to insipid of defeat till next adventure happen. Life is a series of such adventures & misadventures we embark upon, meaning to it comes from the yield we derive for actions we perform. So never ever think of stopping on your tracks, for living life is always about marching to tasteful bets. Go then and bite that opportunity which you stumble on day each, As it may shower you with happiness that cannot be preached, or will make you le...

Things are not panning & turning out as have predicted or planned. Job is not going the way it should have gone. I have accepted this feeling that I have made a mistake in resigning from my previous company Bridgestone India. Things would have been much better if I would have accepted the offer givem at the time by them when I was resigning. The proverbs holds true " Nothing stops for anyone" in this case life. Trying to figure out what is happening & what will happen in future. Something good...or can say ever lasting good needs to happen with me to keep me going. Maybe a "Miracle"...or some thing else what ever it may be called. The emptiness in life is pushing me down me like anything...!! Hope things will change for the better soon...they need to ....!!!! - AB

Passing through the stage of life, where generally person yearn for a support system. I need that support system, in form of a lovable person. One who can boost me up when I hit low, who can support me when I need it most. When I go off the rack, she can get me back on the track. I need someone who can understand my feelings, my longing for those peaceful evenings. Someone who can inspire me to work harder, where I can hook my ship like its a harbor. Someone for whom I can be that special person, on whose face I can bring smile without any reason. I have heard there is always that special person for everyone, But don't know if I am good enough for that person..!!! As this night gets more darker, my longing becomes more harder. Don't know if this longing will come to an end before end of this life. Still have a little faith that there still may be someone special made for me, who right now be dreaming about a lovable paerson which could be me. Hope someday I...

There are things you want to share with someone...but theres no one around... There are times when you face rough situations....but you cannot talk about them to any one.... There are tasks u want to do...but cannot do due to various reasons... There are people you want to close to be...but it does not happens... There are times you care...but sometimes you need to ignore.. There are people you want to go far from...but they stick to you like lynch.... There are feelings you want to develop for someone...but stop for some other reasons... There are times when you love many...but you need to prioritize one over other... There are emotions you want to display to some one...but holds back for reasons known to you... There are dreams you want to chase...but give away chasing them for realities in front of you.... There is someone you love...but....but...but...and it always remains but... And thats my friend is Life...emotions, love, care, choices, selections...

Driving out with an old pal, having fun in an old car, participating in a street brawl, taking beer from the side bar. Passing through some backyard, smile to that girl with the red scarf, help the toddler with his toy car, that house near the river wharf. ... The time passes like sand, adore little moments of joy & pangs, emulate your tasks with a bang, thats a life of a successful man. -AB

Living in Pune gives you an advantage to visits various nearby places & to indulge with nature. Several famous vacation destination are with 100 km range that you can go different places each weekend. For me Travelling to various interior areas of India being one of my occupational responsibility I prefer to spend quite weekends at my room or at a friends place doing nothing or anything, rather travelling to these places. But sometimes I do get freinds from other cities to visit these nearby places for weekend and I along with them visit them. Similarly I visited Lonavala in Jan'14 with couple of friends. LONAVALA is small hill station which finds its place at the middle of Mumbai-Pune Express Highway, It is kind of equidistant from Navi Mumbai (Khargahr) & Pune. Myself living in Pimpri Chinchwad which is towards nearer to Lonavala so its only 1.5 hrs drive to this place. Basically the best time to visit Lonaval;a is after August (during & after monsoon season). ...