Hamaar Asmaan

The Preparation I had till now decided to go for the assignment and prove myself after all opportunity never comes again and again on your door. I was a bit excited from inside and a little bit nervous too. That time I could say it was a mixed type of feeling on percentage basis it could be, 50% excitement and 50%  fear, or 80% excitement and 20% fear, or may be vice verca i.e., 20% excitement and 80% fear. Well I really was not able to understand what I was feeling at that time and thats the best part of it. Sometimes getting out of your comfort zone helps to you see the things in this world which you really admire, events from which you take lessons and memories which you cherish through your whole life, and thats really what all life is all about. Isn't it????? So I started the preparations ... What I needed for this kind of assingment, I sat down on my chair in the cabin and listed down all the things on my note pad. The list was something...

The Assignment Revealed Well as you know that I had been given an assignment by my MD and asked my HOD to Breif me about the Assignment and its sensitiveness. So the conversation which took palce was as this, HOD: So, Akshat tommorow morning you need to go to Medak. Me: o.k. and whom I have to meet there. MD: Actually No One. No one in the office should also not know where you are going and this include your friends also (he meant Krish...) I was dumbstruck for a second... Me: means.. MD: Its something classified and confidential. And in this business keep in mind only few office people know things in detail about this business which include Me , your HOD MR and now onwards you. HOD: You need not to meet anyone there on the first day, even you shouldn't enter into the factory premises. Me: fine, but what I had to do then... HOD: There is a testing of our competitors product there tommorow and you have to click pictures and if possible make video film of the sam...

"The beginning" Now as you all know am working with CTGO into their security division of the company as an Quality Engineer in the beginning, as was told to me by the management. Though my position was as an Engineer Trainee and designation was " Team Member-Engg. Team". The experience I am talking about took place in the month of November'09. Krish and I were just winding up for the day in our cabin. The cabin was shared between Abhay, me and one other guy. We went to our respective  HODs to bid them farewell for the day..(actually to take permission to go out on official time....) if no other important work for the day was left undone. When I  reached to NM who was my HOD, I was told to wait for some time as there is some work to be done and she will call me in around half an hour. My first reaction to it was like "what????? have to wait again....but why?? why me only...??? and blah blah blah......" and I started abusing the management withi...

Intro... Well to start with I would like you all to know that I passed my B.Tech in Mechanical Engineering for Sri Ram Murti Smarak College of Engg. and Tech., Bareilly. After that I was jobless and so came to Delhi like many of my batchmates and got job with CTGP after around a month and half. It was a small private limited company with a Lala as its Chairman. Now CTGP is actually a half a century old company in various fields like industrial products, OTR *   and special application tyres, Runflat Wheel Assemblies, Conveyors, Rubber Linings etc.. Everyone of you know what industrial products and tyres are, so I would tell you what runflat wheel assemblies are. These are specially for the Armoured and bullet proof vehicles used by army, para milatary forces and police for combat operations and also for carrying defence personnels in sensitive areas. It is also is used to carry VVIPs like P.M., C.M....etc... As it is a special product and of strategic importance and th...

After quite amount of time i am today writing on my blog. Around 2 days ago me and utkarsh were discussing a rare unlawful and frightening (for me) experience of mine. I again felt that chill, that fear and all those feelings which were then I was going through. Only a handful of people which includes my brothers (not each and everyone but some) and some friends. The experience I can't say completely changed me but it changed my attitude towards things, towards people and to some extent my behavior. Well in coming posts I am gonaa describe it from starting to end.... lets see how good could I describe...

Yeasterday I saw a beautiful movie. INVICTUS... now Invictus is also a poem William Henely and the meaning of the poem is shown very beautifully in the movie. The movie itself is based on true story staged in SOUTH AFRICA during the presidential tenure of Nelson Mandela. It shows how Nelson Mandela used his team to set an example for his people and to unite his country. A great movie to watch. For me its somehow inspiring, specially the last two lines of poem which goes in the background. "I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul." I am pasting the poem under for u all to read so may be any one of you could also find it good for them... Out of the night that covers me, Black as the Pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror...

Jo is samay meri jindagi mein chal raha hai, vo dekhkar to yahi lag raha hai... "EK TARAF TALAB AUR EK TARAF KHAI, SHAYAD YAHI HAI MERI LIFE". Taday I have been given Ultimatum by my company that I had to do sales work they cannot provide me any other profile...(actually saalon ke paas hai hi nahin...) and also cannot transfer me to another division. So now I had to do sales or as they say give your resignation. Tough situation to counter with, don't want to go into sales profile but is stuck with a trading comapny (though they call themselves as SERVICE COMPANY...) but can't get any service contract since over a year from any of their customers. And now m not getting jobs from my core....(main pada hua adhaa bhool bhi chuka hoon..) agar interview hua bhi toh padna bahut padega..(vo problem nahin hai...) Problem hai ki agar yahan ab dab gaya toh dab hi jaaunga....aur resign de diya toh abhi paas mein koi aur job hai nahin... thats why I am in a fix hindi...

Well ws takin a note of some various great events of my life..... Observed that the unplanned things were far more better than those which were planned, The list for me is long for those unplanned moments which I would always remember, same I beleive would be everyone out there. It is may be because those were most unexpected in our lives n we enjoyed them to fullest at that moment. We always enjoyed that event or moment or whatever u call it. It is may be because we don't have any expectations from that moment, we don't have any grudges for it when it lasts. Its because none of our expectations were unfulfilled by it as we didn't have any from it.... So guys live every moment with joy and always expect magic and surprises to happen..... AB

Well its been a lot of time and may be many of us would have forgotten the disaster resulted due to the spread of SARS Virus..... I was today just going through Stephen Hawkings site and read about Jayant Narlikar (Last time I had heard about him was that he counducted some experiments to check bacterias in outer space....) Well just for the information for u all guys..Jayant Narlikar is India's most prominent Astrophysicst-astronomer and is knowm world widw for his work in cosmology, astrophysics. He even had shared his office with Hawkings during their stay at Cambridge. He had been awarded Padmabhushan at an early age of 26 way back in 1965. Well coming back to what I was intended to say was that according toi the experiment done by Mr. Narlikar there are various bacterias and micro-organism which live in outer space. Now by this experiment Narlikar is trying to suggest that SARS was not an earthly virus but it was an alien virus which did this....now thats sound intrest...

This is absurd ..real absurd...anyone who wud be serious with work will call this absurd. I had taken off from office on my will without telling anything in my company. Actually I actually don't want to continue with the job witgh my present organisation anymore. They are suckin my ass like anything but i can't resign. They have my documents and they are at stake. And also if I resign they wiuld claim a heafty sum of aroing 70000 on me. This would be difficult but gotta move on to find something better for me. Though I had learnt much from my job but now can't withstand. Lets see wats in store for me. Theres gonna be a short  difficult period abd hope wud get over from it soon....

Andhera kya hai....agar gaur se samjhe toh andhera kuch nahin ahi....kuch bhi nahin... prakash ka naa hona hi andhera hai...par vo apne aap mein kuch anin hai... jaise sikke ke do pehlu hota hain usi tarah yeh bhi roshni ya kahen ujaale ke do prhlu hi toh hain. Ek prakah- jo ki nayi umeed, naye jeevan ka sandesh hai....aur doosra.. Andhera: jo darr aur bure ka prateek hai.... Par agar andhera nahin toh prakash ka bhi mahatva nahin hai, isiliye toh kaha jaata hai ki jab andhera sabse jyaada ghana hota hai tabhi prakash ke aane ki aahat hoti hai... matlab har burre samay ke baad acha samay aata hai...... ek nayi kiran ka ujaale jaise nayi umeed nayi jindagi nayi khushiyaan laata hai.... Main bhi intzaar mein hoon... ussi ujale ki....shaayad vo nikat hi hai...............

Jivan ek tarang hai, jismein bhare kai rang hai, Yeh ek anand hai, jo sab rang hain. Jivan ek kartavya hai, jisse poora karta har manushya hai, Yeh subhay ka kalrav hai, jismein sakdon vichaaron ka udgam hai. Jivan agar jiyo toh yeh ek navrang hai,har rang se juda koi kissa ya kahani hai....

 *काँच की बरनी और दो कप चाय **–** **         **एक **बोध कथा* जीवन में जब सब कुछ एक साथ और जल्दी - जल्दी करने की इच्छा होती है , सब कुछ तेजी से पा लेने की इच्छा होती है , और हमें लगने लगता है कि दिन के चौबीस घंटे भी कम पड़ते हैं , उस समय ये बोध कथा , " काँच की बरनी और दो कप चाय " हमें याद आती है । दर्शनशास्त्र के एक प्रोफ़ेसर कक्षा में आये और उन्होंने छात्रों से कहा कि वे आज जीवन का एक महत्वपूर्ण पाठ पढाने वाले हैं ... उन्होंने अपने साथ लाई एक काँच की   बडी़ बरनी ( जार ) टेबल पर रखा और उसमें टेबल टेनिस की गेंदें डालने लगे और तब तक डालते रहे जब तक कि उसमें एक भी गेंद समाने की जगह नहीं बची ... उन्होंने छात्रों से पूछा - क्या बरनी पूरी भर गई ? हाँ ... आवाज आई ... फ़िर प्रोफ़ेसर साहब ने छोटे - छोटे कंकर उसमें भरने शुरु किये h धीरे - धीरे बरनी को हिलाया तो काफ़ी सारे कंकर उसमें जहाँ जगह खाली थी , समा गये , फ़िर से प्रोफ़ेसर साहब ने पूछा , क्या अब बरनी भर गई   है , छात्रों ने एक बार फ़िर हाँ ... कहा अब प्रोफ़ेसर साहब ने रेत की थैली से हौले - हौल...

Sometimes u know that something is going wrong but still u can't do anything for it.... Same is going with me..I know m doing wrong...know that m not using my will power fully....rather would say that I'm not able to execute with my will power not able to do right things n had a feeling that going in the dark path but is not able to do anything though I like to do something about it..... May be it is due to that m leading a easy life for  about a year and not willing to go back to that struggling phase again...but am I really leading a good lyf...:-/ well hopin all things would be sorted out after I visit my Home at Bareilly....may be... lets hope for the best....

This was the time I had realised yeas now m into real Business World....the mean and selfish world......